I think I had one too many last night.
That's what my head tells me at least...
But still, I feel good. Over all life is great at the moment, and I am looking forward to just relaxing and maybe having some kind of seriously decadent food today (cheating on the once a week is fine we said, and when you're hungover it doesn't really count anyways...)
As usual it's grey outside, but since I'm not going to venture out in it I don't really care. Actually it can be quite nice when it's sort of dark and rainy when you get to stay inside, be warm and just look at it from your safe haven behind the window.
So I'm smiling to myself, looking at my friend who's sleeping in my bed (she a lot more hungover than me, but it doesn't bother me at all that she's here, I'm happy to take care of her) and wishing you all a very very...
So for this night out I bought (among some other stuff)...
Apple sour(z).
It's a 15 % alcohol (for you who didn't know) and I it's going to be mixed with Vanilla Vodka and fruit soda to make a drink called P2.
...Or with just Vanilla Vodka so make Appletinis (which should apparently also have lemon juice or something like that in it, but I don't have that at home so...).
I've wanted to buy this for some time (because P2 is a good drink...according to me), but I thought it was too expensive.
As it turns out, it cost about 25 dollars for 70 cl, which I didn't think was too bad. So I bought it.
Oh well, I have to get on with getting ready for tonight now. I have a feeling it's going to be a great one!
Ki o tsukete mina-san! (^ _ ^) Matane!
What's the longest you've ever waited in line?
Oh I don't know...half an hour perhaps.
To be honest I don't really think about the specific number of minutes that passed while I wait in line. Well I suppose most people don't, but for different reasons...
(As a lot of us - I would imagine) I don't see the minutes because I am to busy being bored. Five minutes is five minutes to long. Ha ha...I'm terribly impatient I know. ...it's a problem - sometimes - but I can live with it ^_^ I'm used to it. Mostly it's the waiting in line things that makes me really annoyed these days. Oh well...that's enough for now, I have to get on with my day.
I know that I'm complaining quite a lot about my lack of money these days...Gome ne about that.
But still it is a very real concern in my life (well I picked the life of a student myself, so you might argue that I also picked to be poor, but still...), and so I will probably bitch about it quite a lot more in the future.
Aaaanyways...the issue today is this:
There are no money left to go to the hairdresser. And I really need to both cut and color my hair. Because it's really ragged looking when it's let out and if you look near the root you can see my real hair-color coming out (= not pretty at all).
Which is why I have it in silly little - like a few centimeters long - ponytails all the time (see picture)...
Don't get me wrong, ponytails are really cute on others...but since I've had short hair for quite a long time now I'm not used to it, and frankly I have short hair to get rid of the bother to manage such things (because it's a small project to put my hair in a ponytail, it's of different lengths and stuff and somehow a few curls always manage to fall out).
Gah. It's a problem.
...And an even bigger one that I will most likely have to wait until like January until I can do something about it, since this month is very poor (as usual); and come December I will probably spend quite a lot on Christmas presents.
Oh well I guess it'll work out.... ^ _ ^
And on a completely unrelated (or maybe not quite) subject. I'm doing red nails (see picture again) for all of November, and December, in celebration of this most wonderful time of the year. Christmas!
Ki o tsukete mina-san! (^ _ ^) Matane!
And every now and then....RAIN. (Still waiting for the snow...)
You've got to love the so called Swedish winter.
"Fighto-oh!''
- Yankumi/Yamaguchi Kumiko (Nakama Yukie), Gokusen
...Because I've started a new course (psychology) and I need to fight to perform my best; since this is the direction I want to choose (for the following two years) when we pick this spring.
Christmas is coming up, and I totally love love love this season (a passion I share with my dear neighbour MorningBerryz, check out her post "My most favorite♥ season～＊of the year" if she is your neighbour too). It's so filled with nice things like candles and sparkle and gingerbread cookies and cosy family gatherings.
I can't wait for it!
But, there is a small "problem" with this season too (very small really, not at all big enough to make me dislike it even a little, but still one that warrants some attention), and this is the food. Well...not the food itself, it's wonderful (I especially like the candy), but rather the fact that it's not very healthy, and that you eat so much of it. During a period of time that's a little too long for it to be good.
I always gain weight over Christmas and New years. Every single year I know that it's going to happen, but still it happens yet again. Because I figure that it's only once a year, I am free from school and having fun with my family and friends and I deserve to enjoy it...
...Which is a justified feeling I think, not one I would want to get rid of (Christmas should be enjoyed, as much as possible for as long as possible), but I would be a little happier if I didn't need to hate my figure every year after the whole wonderfulness has ended.
And that's why I am going to have sort of a "Pre-Christmas diet" period this year (well not diet per se, more like healthy eating and exercise, but you know what I mean). Because if I manage to loose some weight before the holidays it shouldn't matter as much if I gain some, since I in that case would gain back to what I am now (which I feel basically okay about, at least). And so I wouldn't need to feel the I-have-to-loose-weight-panic that I get after holidays and vacations.
That makes sense, right?
Well I think it does at least, so does anyone have any tips?
Because in my constant quest to loose weight I will take every single one that you have to give me to heart.
(It's been some time since I wrote a diet post, and I think many of you might be annoyed that it's back - I would probably be - and I'm sorry about that. But well it's important to me, so I had to write it anyway)
Oh well...to move on to the next topic of today...
I'm getting the Vaccine for the new flue (H1N1) tomorrow. It's free for every citizen in Sweden (perhaps it's free in other countries as well, I wouldn't know), and the students of Lund (and other university cities) are prioriticed so there's not a whole lot of people who's gotten it before us.
Which I guess is because there is a lot of people socialising with a lot of people in the university world, and they wouldn't want 42.000 students to lay at home sick.
It's smart I think (a resonable way to think if you ask me), but I'm mostly happy that I'm getting the vaccin because I'm somewhat a hobby hypochondriac and would totally manage to convince myself that I was dying if I got this new flue.
Of course I am also a worrier, and so I am a little scared of possible side-effects of the vaccine, but I figure it's better to worry about them because it's a lot smaller risk to get them than to get the flue. And besides I wouldn't want to get sick and than give the illness to someone that's already sick in something else or just generally weak...and then they die because they got this shit from me. No, the vaccine is a better alternative.
And that was all for now I think.
Oyasuminasai mina-san! (^ _ ^) Matane!
Sure I fill my days with more serious studies, I live on my own and do things like wash and buy groceries and pay bills and I entertain myself with adult things like alcohol and staying out all night (well not all night, but you get the picture right?)...
...but still I feel so much more like a child than I did back when I was like 14-15-16.
Does that sound strange?
Well I know that it might, so I'll explain it to you (or I'll attempt to at least...)
Back then (when I was 14-16, or something like that), everything was terribly serious. I took myself very seriously, my studies was the world I lived in and every acting silly or showing a potentially quirky side was out of the picture. Because it was so important to be the good one, the one that had it all figured out and that you could go to with all academic questions...In my school I was the head of the student council and a member or the board for school issues together with teachers and the headmaster.
And I thought I had it all figured out. I knew what my opinion was on most important issues, I had an idea of the world; of what you did and didn't do, of what I did and didn't do. It all seemed to be in order, I figured that I pretty much knew how things worked. I was controlled and ordered and would probably have taken care of a "household" (if you can call it that when it's just me) in a much more organized way than I do now.
I am happy that I was like that then. There is no part in my life that I would take back, because every single moment has taught me something and above all every single moment has taken me to where I am now. But being like that then makes it that much clearer how different it is from who I am now.
That girl didn't play like I do now. That girl didn't laugh at silly things in the same way or say stuff that might sound stupid just because she didn't think before she opened her mouth. She didn't let herself being ecstatic because she saw a hare in the grass when she was on a walk or smile even though a test might not have went exactly as great as she hoped.
It took some time but I know now that it's fine to not be the best all the time. I still hate it a little but I have learned not to let it get to me, to be more free.
To be more like a child, not worrying about things so much. There is a tomorrow for some things, sometimes it's all right to just be in the moment and not obsess about everything that should be or that isn't. It's not a weakness to let someone else be better or to let people see you for the one you really are. It makes me happy to be open and talkative and sometimes say downright odd or dumb things, and I know now that it's fine if people see that. You don't have to be serious and smart all the time.
So there you pretty much have it. I hope I have been able to explain it to someone. That this is why I think I am More of a Child now than I was when I was younger.
Because I can be effortlessly happy.
I can be myself in the moment.
And when it happens it's a joy of someone much more innocent.
*Yawn*
Hi guys.
It's night in Sweden and I am getting quite sleepy actually.
Granted I took a power-nap that was like one hour long this afternoon, but still I have been up since 7 this morning (which is early for me, I've gotten used to sleeping qiute a lot longer than that)...
...so I think I have the right to be a little ..*yawn*
Ne?
It has been quite a busy week after all, I think I need my rest (ha ha, or my beauty sleep you might say...considering how I look in the mornings >_<).
...which is why I'm going to sleep now.
Oyasuminasai mina-san (^ _ ^) Matane
Good evening guys.
First of all I'd like to say thanks to everyone that's been so concerned about me and my (rather stubborn) cold.
It's getting better now, a lot better...I'm just waiting for the sniffles to go away completely so I can feel like myself again. There's a lot of work in school now so it could really not have come at a worse time. But...as I said luckily it's passing now so it's aaaall good.
Anyway I'm relaxing in front of the tv at the moment. Friends is on, Ross is playing rugby and it pretty much looks like it would if I would try to (not good that is). Ha ha! I've seen the episode a million times but it never really gets old.
Also I'm fixing my nails. The picture didn't turn out so good (it was difficult taking a nice one with so much zoom), but I suppose you can pretty much see what color it is. It's called Madras (yes, as in the city)...I don't know why but that doesn't really matter does it (?). No matter what it's called I like it, because it's all red and Christmasy ^_^
I love juice!
Ha ha I know that was sort of random (well really random even), but I really do. And also the juice I'm having is suppose to have like extra vitamins and bacteries and stuff...which I'm hoping will speed up the process of kicking out the cold even a little more.
It's 8 p.m here, in case someone was wondering. And I'm gonna get back to my nails now.
Ki o tsukete mina-san! (^ _ ^) Matane!
