At the airport...

Am I going home? Or leavin it?...

Three months… Has it already been that long? Has it only been that long?...

I’m sittin at the airport. So glad I have the laptop. Spendin time alone with me is not something I want to do at this time…

A senior of mine got stabbed last nite… at an intersection less than 5 minutes away from college. He passed away before they got him to the hospital… Five times… How can anyone stab someone five times? How can you live with yourself after something like that?? How can you pull that blade out and…

I don’t understand… It’s not fair. It’s just not right. No one deserves something like this…

And the worst part is- I feel so horrid… even though I barely knew him. I can’t even begin to imagine what his close friends must be goin through… Who’s goin to tell his mother? And how?...

Yesterday was his last day here… His last day.

The cricket teams are here. Oh great. They’ll be on my flight. I don’t need this crowd right now. I really don’t. Well, maybe they’ll be on the earlier one. God, you really can’t go anywhere without runnin into someone from lawschool. Jus’ met one of my class mates. Oh well, I guess it’s only normal. Hols start today...  His friends are all canceling flights… and the ones that left are all coming back. The entire college looked so deserted and empty today… and there was no wind at all.. It was so deathly still…

I don’t wanna go back. Not because of any reason but the fact that it’ll fuck my mind up. Too many worlds. Control over none.

01 Oct 2007

0233

Am in my room… *smiles* as in, the one where my parents stay… Jus took a cold long bath. Tried to wash it all away… Didn’t really work… I’m jus’… blank. It comes in waves, sweeping over me and leavin me gaspin for breath in its wake…

May his soul rest in peace...