JadeMidori - Saturday, February 10, 2007 5:35:48 AM

I never intended it to be this way...
Or maybe thats a lie
Maybe this is exactly where I knew I would be...
But there was nowhere to turn
Nowhere at all

I hate this place
and hate kills me...
I hate them all
Everyone in this world...
Im sorry...

I shouldnt hav come this far
I knew
I knew all along
That in the end, there was nothin but the sheer drop
Yet I kept climbin
And now Im at the top
And it feels like the end
The sun shines on, clueless
Not knowin that here Im ending, dying, fadin away
Or maybe its jus tryin to warm the last few minutes of my life...
Either way, it doesnt matter...
Nothin really does...
Im so high up,
my life lies below me
On the endless twistin and turnin road that led me here
And I see nothin but a story of uselessness
I've come too far to go back...
and I dont think I remember where to go back to anyway
And there is nothin ahead of me...
Except more of this nothingness
And Im tired of nothingness...

So I stand at the very edge
and watch as the sun rises as I begin to end...
It would hav been nice if I could hav felt its warmth one last time...
One first time...
Tel me what its like
To not be so cold...
I do not know...
and Im tired of tryin to find out...
I want nothin now...
The wind plays with my hair...
tellin me not to give up yet...
a message from the sun perhaps...
"I amnt givin up" I whisper back
"Im gettin out"
"Gettin away"...
The wind rages now "You're runnin away"
"Coward"
"Weak"
...
I smile at the sun
"No, Not runnin away..."
Walkin away...