15 posts tagged “alcohol”

That's all.

That's all it comes down to...

What can I say?
At the end of the day... no matter what I smoke and who I hang out with...

I am still a girl.

Gah!!!

But still... wouldn't have it any other way!

She stumbled out of her room and to the sink. Splashing cold water on to her face, she looked up, big dull eyes looking into the hazy mirror. Fuck. She thought. I look as miserable as I feel. She giggled a little at that. Couldn't help it. At that moment, her phone buzzed. A message from her friends. Dinner outside or at the canteen? Eventually, she decided to go out. She had to get a drink anyway.

Luckily, her friends too wanted some alcohol. The three of them made their way to the shop at the end of the end of the road. Three quarts of some cheap old rum, some smokes and a mixer and they were set. Making their way back to the college slowly, they decided to sit at their local smoking spot (right outside college) and drink there. It was good. Felt calm.

Later on phone calls would come. Explanations would be asked for. Some would be given, some would be avoided and some would be ignored. But, for now, everything was cool. And all they had to do was not worry...and be happy...

Alcoholic? We're not alcoholic!

Why do I worry?
When it is you saving me?
Coz nothin lasts forever
and November rain keeps fallin

Even though it's July
And Christmas is long since over
I keep trying to learn
And its been longer than forever

Dunno what I'm saying
Everything is mixed up and wrong
Hope I know what I'm doing
Hope I;m playing the right song

Angst as usual
but tempered with life
I may be miserable
But there;s always someone with more strife

Makes you feel pretty miserable
Feeling miserable at all
when there are folks dying
with no one to call...

At least I have life
at least I have you
Even though you may not love
at least care, you do...

My first Carry...

Damn it.
I really didn't wanna cross this one line, you know?
But I guess if you ricochet off walls without any real control, sooner or later you are gonna fly out the window...

*smiles sadly*

I haven't told my parents yet. I guess I'll just break consti and land laws news along with history. Why give 'em three heart-attacks when one would be fine??

I spent over 5 hours at Pecos yesterday. It was fun. A-kun left yesterday... It was quite sad. I felt horrible. Vash has gone off too. For a week. I suppose I could finish projects. Besides, SF is almost here. *tired smile*

Another Saturday night spent outside. This is becoming a habit. Oh well, I'm only gonna be 19 once, ne?

I saw 'Remember the Titans' yesterday. It is simply a stunning movie. The Ramifications and implications of this movie hit me deeper than they did the last time. It kept reminding me of "To Kill a Mockingbird". The ease with which everyone accepts that this is how it has always been and thus always will be. Quite scary...

Anyhow, I'm quite numb right now. I really don't want 7 courses in third year's first trimester... I think I shall go read or something. Maybe get some sleep...

House parties and alcohol
Smoking and roofs
Laughter and conversation
Photo sessions and chuckles
Boys and ...well... nothing
A New family and interrogations
Confessions and surprises
Vows and promises
Stairways and sleep
College and phone calls
Drugs and the internet

Memories...

http://www.hindustantimes.com/Frames.htm?pageid=http://www.htnext.in/news/5922_2158166,008700010014.htm


Law students more depressed than others

IANS
Sydney, September 19, 2008

Law students and lawyers suffer twice or even thrice as much psychological distress as medical students and others, according to a representative study conducted in Australia.

The study, conducted by the University of Sydney's Brain and Mind Research Institute (BMRI), included over 2,400 lawyers and 741 law students from 13 law schools.

Law students were found to have much higher rates of depression than medical students or other general students at the university. Significantly, law students were also found to be less knowledgeable about depression, but had greater concerns about alcohol and other substance misuse and greater reluctance to seek professional care.

They were more likely to expect that they would be discriminated against in the work place as a result of being recognised as a person with depression, a Sciencealert report said.

The study extends previous work done by the national depression initiative in 2007, which had demonstrated that lawyers reported higher levels of depression and substance misuse than other professionals.

In his presentation, Ian Hickie of BMRI emphasised that the willingness of the law schools, the Law Society and bar associations to support the study and go on to consider ways to greatly improve the situation was welcome and urgently needed.

Wine...
Cursed drink...

Today was pretty horrible... I managed to submit my projects on time yesterday; After which a few of us went to Hypnos. I was ok throughout. In fact, I hated the gin, hated the vodka (they were serving only Romanov) and the wine was not exactly amazing either... I did try a hookah though, so all was not a waste of time...

At the end, V.N wanted to stop a few others from drinkin further, so he told me (through elaborate hand gestures) that I was to finish the shots on the table. I poured everything in one glass. Gin, Vodka and Wine. And then downed it. It was HORRIBLE! And I was so completely gone at the end of it...

Today was terrible. First hour, I missed attendance and then could not even fall asleep!!! I read a little bit of the Silmarillion. Second hour, my head started spinning. History. That was pretty much the worst hour. Fortunately, I fell asleep near the end and slept through Consti. Which reminds me he seems to be on a mission to ensure maximum damage...
*sigh*

I cut land-law... Came back to the room and lay down, waiting for the world to stop spinning. That took a while. Finally fell asleep around 1330, only to wake up at 1900! That was brilliant. Then, my room mate and I went to the mess, ate custard and egg curry and then ordered Pizza.

That was brilliant. Pizza, coke and Simpsons...
I like life, you know?

I have been listening to music since 2100, and talkin to people. Said goodbye to Pyratic. Just spoke to Mave...

If it were completely up to me, I would not touch alcohol for a long long while... but... there are plans... and commitments to be honored...
*sigh*
I just wish they were bearable without the alcohol...

*pained grin*

He's right...
But... does that mean I am wrong?
I don't know...
I could change... but is it worth it?
Do I want to?
Yes...
But do I want this to be the reason?
No...

What do I do?

Take away my pride and my pain... and what's left behind?
Nothing...
I was wrong...
I didn't keep me with me...
I became whiskey, vodka, weed...
There's nothing left of me anymore...
The pieces are ground so finely, all they are anymore is stardust...
Fine, shining, and utterly useless... even for a reflection...
All they do is provide good entertainment...

And you can only watch fragmented shards for this long...

There's going to be a raid tonight...
FUCK!
Not tonight... I'm just glad we got intel...
*sigh*