28 posts tagged “cold”

Everyone leaves.

Another one joins the ranks...

Will things be different this time?

I'd like to believe so...

I dunno anymore.

Maybe... Maybe not...

Too early to tell.

That's all.

That's all it comes down to...

What can I say?
At the end of the day... no matter what I smoke and who I hang out with...

I am still a girl.

Gah!!!

But still... wouldn't have it any other way!

She ducked under the cold steel railing, stepped over the rusty old pipes and suddenly she was there... It was all just the same as when she had left it... but it was so much more. Wonderland... would not do justice to the magical place she had suddenly discovered. And magical it was. Like a kingdom.
No.
An entire world...

The birds flew peacefully overhead, stopping by every once in a while to dip their beaks in the warm water the oasis provided. The sky was as blue as peace and the sun shone warmly through scattered white clouds. And the trees... the trees swayed in welcome as she walked through this land.

A kingdom. Her kingdom, she thought amazed at the sheer joy that ran through her veins. Twirling around happily, she was seven again. And everything was alright with the world. But there were clouds of gloom gathering and whilst she was busy admiring this island, the first drops of sorrow rained upon her land...

She looked upward in disbelief, frozen even as the rain fell about her. And then she ran for shelter. A little cave called out to her... She would be safe here. She looked out at her once peaceful land, now screaming, alone and cold.

to be continued>>>

So... yeah.

*grins sheepishly*

What can I say dude?

It'll take me a while...
One more repeat and then its done. For now.
Lets see dude...
Lets just see...

But its fitting dude...
Pecos.
Lol... So ironic...

I don't even know him dude!
I have to stop saying dude...

I'm acting like such a girl dude!
Oh god, I'm going to kill that boi!

Stupid twins!

I am cold.
Am I supposed to be cold?
I can not remember...

If I was not cold, would I be warm?
Or would there just be nothing at all?

I am not asleep.
But am I awake?
I don't know anymore.

Could I be dreaming?
But then, when am I to awaken?

I am not you.
But am I me?
I can not be sure...

Am I just the girl in the mirror?
Then... is it the glass that is shattering,... or is it I?

It was too pretty a day to be sad
So she tied a red ribbon in her hair

and she laughed

Even though the walls kept shrinking
and the roof kept crumbling

She laughed

Even as the cold rain fell
and as the darkness grew

She laughed

Even as the world began to fade
and the snow began to fall

And then
When the last one was gone
She turned
put the chairs on the tables
Locked the doors
and sat down to cry

But she could not remember how to...

It is cold tonight
Yet I leave the window open
And I keep looking out...
waiting.

I do not wait for a long lost lover
Nor a close friend
I do not wait for the coming of dawn
nor for the chirping of birds...

I just wait.

I wait for time to run out
as I am certain it one day shall
I wait for a voice to call out to me
one I am sure to follow...

I wait. For a sign.

Another trimester.
Over. Done with. Survived. Lived through.
I wanted this trimester to end. I hated so much of it.
And now it's over.

How do I feel?
I feel... lost for words.
I feel...
Inadequate.
Incomplete.
Like I've failed.
Cowardly.
Sad.
Tired
young
old

This trimester did teach me a lot. And I did a lot of things I never thought I would

- Read the book about Nehru
- Drank about 19 mugs of beer at Pecos
- Was invited to an AA meeting
- Went 11 days without a drop
- Spent a lot of time with myself
- Mailed Seth
- Finished the rpg that's been going on for over a year.
- Spoke to Zach very often
- Moved on
- Almost fell off the roof