3 posts tagged “confused”

I've lost all my worlds.

All of them.

Traded them all in for this hell-hole.

And I hate myself...

but 

Not for this sad exchange...

Not because I'm stuck here...

Not because I did this myself...

Not one bit...

I hate this place

but I need to be here

Need to stay...

I'm glad I made it...

and for that I hate myself...

Where do I begin?...
Iv been sittin here starin at the blank screen for so long, but I guess this isnt goin to write itself... I might as well begin...

So many promises. Of things returnin to normal. Of people stayin the same. Of things never changin.

Stupid really.
I hate promises.
I didnt always I guess...
There must have been a time when I believed in them...
Not anymore.

Sounds cynical?
Maybe
But I really dont care.

Cause people lie.
And they destroy.
And they ruin lives.
But most importantly, they break promises...
Over and over
I dont understand...
Why give ur word, if you're goin to go back on it anyway?

Where have I come from? Where will I go?
A thought that wont leave me alone…
Did someone love me? Did someone care?
Or was I jus trapped in another nightmare?
Was I someone’s hope? Someone’s sun?
Is someone still waiting for me to return?
Or am I jus an old forgotten story?
Another shadow in some distant memory…
What fate awaits me ahead?
Will I find peace before impending death?
Or am I cursed to an eternal half-slumber?
Unable to move on, unable to remember…
My path is covered in fog and mist
But I hav things to do, long is the list
Step by step I start walking
Ignoring the voice of my heart, mocking
Where have I come from? Where will I go?
… I guess its jus not for me to know…