What right do I have to destroy something so precious?...
So important?
What right do I have to take away something so loved?
So cherished?

None Jade Midori. None at all.

Just walk away.

And it'll rain again, but this time I'll walk through it alone... and I'll laugh every time I remember... and then, I'll sit down for a cup of coffee. Maybe this time... just maybe, I'll even cry. And when I'm done, I'll stand up and pay what I owe, and I'll walk out.

Hopefully, it'll still be raining...

*laughs*
This is just insane...
Completely insane...
And I can't believe I'v brought this whole thing on myself...
Where do I go now?

I know what to do...
I know what to say...
but where do I go?

It hurts so much...
*pause...*

*laughs*

And I'm the one who asked for pain no?
I'm the one who wanted to know if I was alive...
Do I know yet?

I don't know...
but I guess you have to be alive if you're dying...
and I guess you're alive if you can bleed...

So I'll stand here... and I'll bleed...

What goes around does come around, ne?
I don't know if I can do this anymore... except I don't think I really have a choice...
I'll survive...
I will NOT be weak...
...
...
...

Why do you think I'm strong?
I'm not...
I can't be...
I don't want to feel...
I was better off before...
I'll go back to it... if I can...
I don't know anymore...
I'm just so very tired...
Friends?
I have enough of those...
They can't make the rain stop...
and they can't stop night from falling...
Its okay...
I don't mind...
I love the rain...
And the night is the only time I can breathe...
So...
I guess I will stand...
Things will get better...
if not today... then tomorrow...
and if not then...
well... someday they will...
I'll live for that day... whenever it may come...
*smiles*
I'm okay...
I deserve this...
For all the lies I've ever said...
for all the tears I've caused...
Don't feel sorry for me...
I don't want pity...
I just want... all this to stop...
And I'll manage it on my own...
I don't need your help... and even if I do...
I sure don't want it...
So go away...
live your life...
I don't mind... and I don't blame you...
after all...
What goes around comes around...

Fallen and shattered
Broken once again
At my feet it lays tattered
Screamin in silent pain
It doesn't seem to mend
No matter how hard I try
I guess its coz the glue
is the tears I can't seem to cry
Its been breaking for so long
It's better gone away...
Maybe I should have used a sad song
and hoped that it stayed
Or maybe a ribbon of pain
That tied it all together
Or maybe a walk in the rain
And a promise of forever
Should I piece it back together?
All those tiny little shards
Even though I know it'll break again
Should I put back my heart?
Perhaps a dash of darkness
and a dying breath of hope
Or maybe its jus too late
and it'll stay broken forever more...

Crystal Tears

Innocent blood, spilled again

Pure white snow forever stained

Crystal tears shatter as they fall

Drop by drop from lives so small

Silent haunting endless screams

Penetrating childish dreams

Silent crystal tears fall

Drop by drop from us all

A whispered word might be the last

Another memory in a forgotten past

No one to follow, no hand to hold

No one around in the quiet cold

Frozen memories are all that remain

As once again innocence is slain

Terrified eyes looking for someone they’ve lost

Till they too are just wandering memories in the frost…