3 posts tagged “drunk”
2042
It's an experiment...
Always wanted to do this...
Will record statements every 15/20 mins...
Wanna note 'progress'
*grins*
Let's see...
2054
When did things changfe so much?
I can't even remember...
2128
Room mate's on the phone...
Am afraid of the things am sayin...
I hav to stop...
Under oath,,,
Stil in the process
Gettin hiugh...
I LOVE this!!!
^_^
2140
^_^
Who said happiness was hard?
...
Oh wait. -_-
That was me.
-_-
2204
Almost out of substance...
And am still in complete control...
Dunno how much of agood thing that is anymore...
Well...
lets see...
22213
Pardon me...
While I burst into flames....
Pardom me s I burn
and rise abive the flame...
*smiles*
Forgve me?...
2220
I dunno wat makes sense anymire...
*laughs*'
Not that anythings; new thre
Been like that for a while now...
At leats now...
Instead of jus bein ok with it as I've been for a while...
I'm back to lookin...'
to searchin...
and I knw I'll find the answer...
No matter what they say...
2234
I know I'll never be the same...
but you know what?
THAT... I'm okay with...
250
Each broken heart eventually mends...?
Each and every?...
I just am not that sure anymore...
2255
I tried you know...
To forget...
But I jus can't seem to...
There's too much that a blank anyway...
2300
WaS it wirth it?
All of this?...
I dunno...
but I WILL find out...
Till then...
Jade here...
Signin out...
*smiles*
I hate bein alone...
and I absolutely LOVE it at the same time...
It's the only time I can really think... and I hate doin that... but I need to...
Does that make any sense?
It doesn't really to me...
You know, Iw as jus lookin at some old pictures... and It felt so weird...
it was like I was lookin at someone else's life... n I guess in a way I am...
I dunno..
I must get everythin back togethr.. but I can't seem to...
Doesn't matter... at least not right now...
I love this...
if it was up tp me... I would be like this every single wakin moment of my existence...
it's better than bein asleep... n Havin the same dream every night...
the one I can never remember...
I hate wakin up after that,,,
Just for once,... I want to go to sleep without really worryin bout it... I don't think it'll happen...
Not after my stupid vow...
I hate it when ppl swear to god... someone who they've never really seen in their lives...
i know that sometimes the most real things are the ones you can't believe... but... I dunno....
I just want all this to make sense someday...
Not today though...
Today. I am happy lost in this maze of disillusionment. Oh my, is that even how it's spelt?
I dunno....
I love it when none of this triviality matters....
"And one day we will die
And our ashes will fly from the aeroplane over the sea...
but for now, we are young
Let us play in the sun
and count all the beautiful things we can see,,,"
There always seem to be so many more of those when I feel this way...
and I love it...
I do NOT care if ppl think it's nasty of me, or horrible or whatever that I end up this way...
thois is the closest to happy memories that I have...
Everythin else is too distant....
It'll never matter... n that's what I love...
I don't know if 37 and a half is what I'll reach/cross... but for now... that's good enough...
Am I good enough yet??
I dunno...
and it doesn't matter....
Never mind this randomness...
I'll see you later, kay?....
Well, I got my laptop yesterday... Finished with term paper submissions too... well one of 'em anyway... *sigh* And the exams are creepin closer and closer like some kind of SLUG!!! -_-. Okay, that made little sense... but I Don't really care...
On the bright side, I saw the 'Dead Poets Society' last nite and today afternoon. I really liked it... Was really really sad though... Poor kid... Then me n my room-mate wer takin turns raidin' RC's hard drive. ^_^. Didn't get to sleep... s'okay... I had 3 cups of coffee today evenin. But my head does still hurt... I also spoke to mave... Lol, she's havin a tough time... *grins* but in the nice way... We went n got music from Ak's rank grand mum. ^___^. Am listenin to that now...
I was so freakin high yesterday... Damn it, I think I was bordering on drunk... I dunno how many shots of vodka I did have... I know it was definitely more than 4... And then I had some rum as well PLUS random sips of other forms of alcohol! @_@. Darn it... *shakes head* I need to get a grip... I really do...
Havn't really talked to anyone bout it. mave didn't have any balance... besides its not like she can do anythin from over there... I tried smokin too... Loads of times... Don't think I got it right... Its okay... I'll learn... If I try tellin neone bout what it felt like... Well, I'd jus get lectured again. Bah. Screw em! I did talk to Marten... Atleast he doesnt try n tell me how I'm goin out of control and loads of crap which dont ppl think I already know?!!!(Pardon the grammar -_-)
Damn it, the guard's here... I gotta go... Am goin to watch movies all nite... I hope this mess clears out. Loads more to say. Will update later... Nite...
