22 posts tagged “love”
If you have all you love, you may learn peace someday...
If you are at peace, you may never feel the need for love...
If you were given a choice, what would you choose?
Love? or Peace?
I look into your eyes
waiting for a sign...
for a trace, a shred of memory
of what you'd left behind
Instead I see just darkness
Staring out at us all
A smile that reveals just as much
as an empty dilapidated wall
Where did your laugh go?
That never failed to make me smile
Where did your strength go?
That kept us going all this while
I turn away, tired of waiting
and I want to walk away
I don't know how to tell you
you haunt me night and day
But a step is all I can take
Before you quietly say my name
and suddenly I'm back to the day we met
and everything is the same
I tried so hard to catch you
But all I could do was watch you fall
Now I turn around again
How can I walk away when my name you call?
My first Carry...
Damn it.
I really didn't wanna cross this one line, you know?
But I guess if you ricochet off walls without any real control, sooner or later you are gonna fly out the window...
*smiles sadly*
I haven't told my parents yet. I guess I'll just break consti and land laws news along with history. Why give 'em three heart-attacks when one would be fine??
I spent over 5 hours at Pecos yesterday. It was fun. A-kun left yesterday... It was quite sad. I felt horrible. Vash has gone off too. For a week. I suppose I could finish projects. Besides, SF is almost here. *tired smile*
Another Saturday night spent outside. This is becoming a habit. Oh well, I'm only gonna be 19 once, ne?
I saw 'Remember the Titans' yesterday. It is simply a stunning movie. The Ramifications and implications of this movie hit me deeper than they did the last time. It kept reminding me of "To Kill a Mockingbird". The ease with which everyone accepts that this is how it has always been and thus always will be. Quite scary...
Anyhow, I'm quite numb right now. I really don't want 7 courses in third year's first trimester... I think I shall go read or something. Maybe get some sleep...
Maybe...
Maybe, one day I'll realize the same thing he already has...
Maybe I already have, but just don't wanna face it...
The fact of the matter is, I'm fucked... and sometimes, I don't think there is any hope left...
I guess...
I guess I'll let this be my one last shot...
No.
I need to rephrase that.
This IS my last shot...
and I don't know if it will work.
Maybe it won't.
Maybe it will...
Either way, only time can tell.
Time, and the rest of us...
House parties and alcohol
Smoking and roofs
Laughter and conversation
Photo sessions and chuckles
Boys and ...well... nothing
A New family and interrogations
Confessions and surprises
Vows and promises
Stairways and sleep
College and phone calls
Drugs and the internet
Memories...
One last angst filled post.
For now.
This goes out to you.
You know who you are.
I'm gone.
I'm done waiting for you to wake up and let me in...
Its too late.
*smiles*
I'll miss you.
Really.
But...
"Sometimes shattered
Never open
Nothing matters
When you're broken
That was me whenever I was with you
Always ending
Always over
Back and forth, up and down like a rollercoaster
I am breaking
That habit
Today"
I don't care how shady it is that I'm using these lyrics to prove my point...
The important thing is I am proving it...
Thank you for everything...
but please do not try and look for me again...
coz
"I'm already gone
I'm already gone
Oh, I'm already gone, gone, gone, gone
Already gone
I'm gone"
Long gone darling...
And this... This is my last goodbye...
So... yeah.
*grins sheepishly*
What can I say dude?
It'll take me a while...
One more repeat and then its done. For now.
Lets see dude...
Lets just see...
But its fitting dude...
Pecos.
Lol... So ironic...
I don't even know him dude!
I have to stop saying dude...
I'm acting like such a girl dude!
Oh god, I'm going to kill that boi!
Stupid twins!
I don't know anymore dude...
Just when I thought it was all over...
and I had almost given up...
Things changed...
I guess...
Living means things will change...
And I guess...
that's enough of a reason to keep living...
P.S> You know you're in the second trimester when you get high 4 days in a row...
and plan to go drinkin the next day...
Someone to...
Worship
Worry about
Care about
Care for
Love
Laugh with
Run out in the rain with
Talk about the past with
Dream of
Sleep with
Marry
Give life to
Kill
Destroy
Hurt
Save
Forgive
Desire
Talk to all night
Get wasted with
Hold
Cry to
Dream with
Smoke with
Drink with
Help
Lie to
Read to
Be bound to
Think of
Cry with
Thank
Hate
Want
Talk to
Protect
Die for
Live for...
