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I read about them…

And I see their stories

Written with ink so red

It’s the same ink I use

We all do

But does that make me one of them?

I smile… sometimes

And sometimes I even manage a laugh

Does that make me one of the others?

I don’t know where I stand anymore

Both worlds mean so little…

And none of them matter…

Is that why I still stand at this line, not knowin which way to fall?

Or is it because I’m afraid I’ll hate the world I choose

Or miss one world too much if I forsake it?

Time to choose?

Must I?

I don’t know…

But I’m tired of livin in the middle

On this line…
 

“In a place like that, someone like you has an equal chance- of slipping and fallin… or finding your footing and being able to rise… Its upto you to decide… “

My father told me that before I came here…

I can’t make that decision…

I don’t know if it really is mine to make….

I also can’t choose which way to go

Coz I don’t really know which way is “forward” and which is the other

Everythin’s all the same

An endless cycle of… I dunno

Doesn’t matter…

I’m wandering off topic…

It’s just that…

I see where this leads

And I don’t want to be there

I don’t want to write those very words one day

Knowin there’s someone halfway across the world who wishes for me to stop

Even though we’ve never met

I don’t want someone to feel that... sorry for me…

So do I float or do I sink? 

Anything’s better than going under over and over

And knowing that every time I make it to the surface…

I’ll jus’ go under again…

There is one decision I must take soon though…

Who to appear to be…

Coz…

I’m runnin out of time to paint my mask…