29 posts tagged “melancholy”

Everyone leaves.

Another one joins the ranks...

Will things be different this time?

I'd like to believe so...

I dunno anymore.

Maybe... Maybe not...

Too early to tell.

She stumbled out of her room and to the sink. Splashing cold water on to her face, she looked up, big dull eyes looking into the hazy mirror. Fuck. She thought. I look as miserable as I feel. She giggled a little at that. Couldn't help it. At that moment, her phone buzzed. A message from her friends. Dinner outside or at the canteen? Eventually, she decided to go out. She had to get a drink anyway.

Luckily, her friends too wanted some alcohol. The three of them made their way to the shop at the end of the end of the road. Three quarts of some cheap old rum, some smokes and a mixer and they were set. Making their way back to the college slowly, they decided to sit at their local smoking spot (right outside college) and drink there. It was good. Felt calm.

Later on phone calls would come. Explanations would be asked for. Some would be given, some would be avoided and some would be ignored. But, for now, everything was cool. And all they had to do was not worry...and be happy...

Alcoholic? We're not alcoholic!

Why do I worry?
When it is you saving me?
Coz nothin lasts forever
and November rain keeps fallin

Even though it's July
And Christmas is long since over
I keep trying to learn
And its been longer than forever

Dunno what I'm saying
Everything is mixed up and wrong
Hope I know what I'm doing
Hope I;m playing the right song

Angst as usual
but tempered with life
I may be miserable
But there;s always someone with more strife

Makes you feel pretty miserable
Feeling miserable at all
when there are folks dying
with no one to call...

At least I have life
at least I have you
Even though you may not love
at least care, you do...

She ducked under the cold steel railing, stepped over the rusty old pipes and suddenly she was there... It was all just the same as when she had left it... but it was so much more. Wonderland... would not do justice to the magical place she had suddenly discovered. And magical it was. Like a kingdom.
No.
An entire world...

The birds flew peacefully overhead, stopping by every once in a while to dip their beaks in the warm water the oasis provided. The sky was as blue as peace and the sun shone warmly through scattered white clouds. And the trees... the trees swayed in welcome as she walked through this land.

A kingdom. Her kingdom, she thought amazed at the sheer joy that ran through her veins. Twirling around happily, she was seven again. And everything was alright with the world. But there were clouds of gloom gathering and whilst she was busy admiring this island, the first drops of sorrow rained upon her land...

She looked upward in disbelief, frozen even as the rain fell about her. And then she ran for shelter. A little cave called out to her... She would be safe here. She looked out at her once peaceful land, now screaming, alone and cold.

to be continued>>>

Romanov will always be in love with Mop
HR will never stop
Mave and I will keep trying to be who we once more
Grades will keep falling
Surya will always be the favorite after-exam/before party/farewell party/end of project submission/general hanging out bar.
Strawberry Fields will always end in three days.
[And I will always be devastated at the end. :(]
People will leave...
Scars will never fade
And I will keep listening to the same song...

I look into your eyes
waiting for a sign...
for a trace, a shred of memory
of what you'd left behind

Instead I see just darkness
Staring out at us all
A smile that reveals just as much
as an empty dilapidated wall

Where did your laugh go?
That never failed to make me smile
Where did your strength go?
That kept us going all this while

I turn away, tired of waiting
and I want to walk away
I don't know how to tell you
you haunt me night and day

But a step is all I can take
Before you quietly say my name
and suddenly I'm back to the day we met
and everything is the same

I tried so hard to catch you
But all I could do was watch you fall
Now I turn around again
How can I walk away when my name you call?

3 days.
On loop.
From 1430 to 0300 in the morning!

If I don't stop soon, I'm gonna go crazy...

But I can NOT get enough of this song...

*sigh*

Wish you were here...

I'm sorry.
I know you expected a lot from me, but I have nothing left to give anymore.
And I refuse to fall further into debt...
Thank you,
And forgive me...

It is time I disappear...

Dear Stan,

You are a fool to have left us so
Little Juna still goes to that field everyday
to wait for you
She doesn't believe us when we say you are not coming back
She believes in you
And you left
Your mother sits on the porch all day
watching the tree you used to climb
Your father has never put down that glass
It is always full
He doesn't drink too much though
But it is his only companion
Whiskey still sits with hopeful eyes at the door
He wags his tail every single time a car drives up
and his ears droop each time he realizes it's not you...

And I?
I'm okay.
Life goes on
or as you would say "The show must go on"...
Well... it has...
except, no one cares anymore
And no one's around to make us laugh at ourselves
And we think about you a lot...

Your friends came by yesterday
It was your birthday
Not that I expect you to remember or care!
You never did when you were here
Well, we all sat together
We talked about days long gone by...
We talked about you
and how it was good that you finally got away from this place that bothered you so
...
But you left us here darling...

Remember how we used to sit in one circle and sing till dawn?
We did that last night
We missed you so
I would like to say no one cried...
but we did...
I did...
I'm sorry darling
I jus...
I just wish you were here...
That's all...
Wish you were here...

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