27 posts tagged “nls”

Breaking the habit.
I wanna know.
How do you break a habit?
Do you hack at it bit by bit till it crumbles?
Or do you jus neglect it and let it die like a withering flower?
I don't know...

Yesterday was lots of fun. Me n my room-mate were planning to go to Koshy’s or somewhere else in town, when I found out that she’d never been to Mojo(s). Decision made. We went there at about 1500/1530 and stayed there till 1830. Cold beer, smokes and nacho chips

*nods*
The good life.

I did, however, have my history viva today…

Was actually okay, considering she didn’t rip me to bits, so yay!

Oh, and we got our history papers today.

Darn it! I really don’t want a repeat!

Gah!

After the plays, ak, E.S, A.M n I ate surya food in the bike shed.

Was fun.

*nods*

Other than that, nothing except excess lack of sleep’s been up…

I can’t decide what I should do now, read or sleep?

*sigh*

-_-

Oh well… I think I’ll just watch videos on youtube, which reminds me: I’m watching the Devil May Cry anime. Dante is so HOT! *nods dreamily*

I can’t WAIT till they introduce Vergil…

*grins*
Cya!

So, it’s univ week at college. It’s actually a LOT of fun. We have themes for every day. Today was “I wish I was…” I was from feudal Japan. Yay! Lol. Had the play fest today as well.

2^nd yrs- 9 cigarettes

Basically, the story is about these gangsters. Starts off with one of the characters asking another if he could have his ‘lucky’ cigarette. The latter, who is on the floor, just lies there. The first guy, Pablo, laughs and comments saying “of course not. You’re DEAD.” Then the story keeps flashing back to different instances in the same room.

The first flashback has them sitting together and smoking while there are three cigarettes. Pablo’s askin his friend why he “fucked with him”. Pablo has escaped from prison and has come back for revenge. The flashbacks go on with the number of smokes in the pack going from 1 to 3, then 5, 7 and finally 9. When there are 9 cigarettes left, we realize that the other guy realizes Pablo is after him and poisons one of the cigarettes.

I think the play was done BRILLIANTLY. G.J played the part of Pablo perfectly. His dialogues, gestures and specially expressions, were all so real, it was a pleasure to just watch it. The story itself is rather cool. ^_^. There may be a lil bias-ness creepin in. Lol, after all it is a play on the mafia, but still…

(No time, so for now I’m gonna skip the summaries)

4^th yrs – Romeo met Juliet and kept walkin on.

This play was awesome, if just for the killer end! Lol. The acting was good. Actually made you go “awww” once in a while. Couldn’t hear all the dialogues though. Still, it was a good play.

3^rd yrs – Sachin’s sixer (or something of the effect)

It was a funny play. The Arab-Italian’s accent was interesting, and the 4 different “terrorists” with their totally different –I don’t believe I am using this word but – ideologies were hilarious, especially when they argued over who really caused the plane crash. I also really liked the Bombay “bhai” character. All well portrayed.

1^st yrs –

This play was simply STUNNING. The characters were well etched out. We had backgrounds and stories and reasons and motives. Though it was the only play with a chosen script (and not a made up one), the production itself was amazing. I LOVED K.A’s character portrayal of Javed. Frikkin brilliant. He was perfect, and I mean literally perfect. There was not a single line which left us thinking he could have delivered it better. The tortured confused, yet confident Javed was simply a pleasure to watch! The mother herself was so funny. Every nuance had been worked out and the amount of work that had gone into it could be seen. Also, N.N outdid himself! You can actually feel his frustration rise through the play. I guess that’s what made the play so great. Every character took you with them through their motives and, in the end, there was not one person who made you feel he/she was wrong for the way they acted, simply because the reasons were so well explained through their acting itself. S.C was amazing too, even if she had a relatively small role. S.A was adorable as the young child-bride.

I think overall, the play was a grand success, even if it was a tad too long.

5^th yrs

Will update later.

Why can’t people just mind their own business?

It’s so totally PISSING off.

-_-

No, I don’t care what you say.

How hard is it to understand that?

We may be friends, but you have no right to tell me what to do and who to talk to.

I don’t give a f*ck if it IS jus coz you’re “worried”

Butt out bitch.

-_-

Sorry

Just really really ticked off right now

Should’ve just whacked her head off with the kendo stick

-_-

May 16th
Day 2

"I wish I was...."

"I wish I was in Feudal Japan..."

(Note- Pics soon)

Consti.

In class right now.

The battery's bout to die...

-_-

Got our history papers today. -_- With my horrible attendance, it'll now officially be DEATH! Plus I hav my viva today..  I'm sooooo sleepy... and I havn't really read anything...

*sigh*

Oh well...

At least yesterday was fun.

Went to Mojo.

^_^

Nacho chips rule!

^_^

You know, it's only now that I realize what a sheltered life I'd really lived.

Horrors are horrors... I'm talkin bout daily life here...

The Navy is an amazing place to grow up in. For the first 17 years of my life, the words "caste", "society", "religious discrimination", etc meant NOTHING to me. They were just words I read in the newspaper. And I laughed at the stupidity of the small number of people- or so I thought- that were still obsessed with these immaterial things...

But then... I had my one year at college in K-land. Even then... I believed that it was a freak thing, and the only real barrier was one of communication. I refused to believe that our country could still be a place where it mattered what caste or religion you were born in, and the concept of pure blood still existed...

But now...
All my doubts have been crushed into tiny little pieces... as has much of my belief in ours being a truly secular country. Everyone says it doesn't really matter where you're from, but it's such a part of everyday conversation and thought... it scares me... but more than that, it angers me. I hate the way it has crept into every day of my life. I hate knowing that no matter what I say or do, the first thing so many around me will want to know is where I am from. What the F*CK does that have to do with anything???
(Sorry bout the censoring, my coll will block access to my own site if I do not do so. -_-)

I loathe the question "Where are you from?", and I'm glad I have no one answer to give. I'm relieved that there is no one state or caste I must 'belong' to. "Belong to". I belong to no one. To nothing. Specially not some dumb ancient system just because I was born in one house and not another. If I want to belong somewhere, I am gonna be the one deciding where, not my 'lineage', not my blood. Me.

At home, religion was never a big thing. Yeah, once in a while, mum would light some incense and then me and my brother would fight over who would get to twirl it around the few god pictures in the house. But that was pretty much it. We never had forced temple visits, or family prayers. Some may say that it brings about better 'family harmony'. I think playin UNO accomplishes that way more easily... and it's more fun too!

And then there's all the shocked gasping people who ask me how I dare say I don't believe in God. Firstly, it's none of their business. Secondly, it's not like I don't believe in God, I just don't believe in their Gods. Any of theirs. Religion is nothing but another reason to be divided. Oh sure, it unites people, brings different people together, promotes harmony, blah blah. But it also gets people killed... and frankly, I'd rather everyone live in relative isolation than be murdered just because they fast in the name of different supernatural beings.

2042
It's an experiment...
Always wanted to do this...
Will record statements every 15/20 mins...
Wanna note 'progress'
*grins*
Let's see...

2054
When did things changfe so much?
I can't even remember...

2128
Room mate's on the phone...
Am afraid of the things am sayin...
I hav to stop...
Under oath,,,
Stil in the process
Gettin hiugh...
I LOVE this!!!
^_^

2140
^_^
Who said happiness was hard?
...
Oh wait. -_-
That was me.
-_-

2204
Almost out of substance...
And am still in complete control...
Dunno how much of agood thing that is anymore...

Well...
lets see...

22213
Pardon me...
While I burst into flames....
Pardom me s I burn
and rise abive the flame...
*smiles*

Forgve me?...

2220
I dunno wat makes sense anymire...
*laughs*'
Not that anythings; new thre
Been like that for a while now...
At leats now...
Instead of jus bein ok with it as I've been for a while...
I'm back to lookin...'
to searchin...
and I knw I'll find the answer...
No matter what they say...

2234
I know I'll never be the same...
but you know what?
THAT... I'm okay with...

250
Each broken heart eventually mends...?
Each and every?...
I just am not that sure anymore...

2255
I tried you know...
To forget...
But I jus can't seem to...
There's too much that a blank anyway...

2300
WaS it wirth it?
All of this?...
I dunno...
but I WILL find out...
Till then...
Jade here...
Signin out...
*smiles*

*click*
*light*
*drag*

heh...

At least the day dosn't begin that way...
The first of the day is usually in the second break...
even on the days I decide I won't smoke today... well, someone always wants to go..
and you go along...
company's sake...

But then, you're there so may as well, ne?
After all, there's always tmrw, right?
Except...
every tmrw is an exact repetition of today...

You know...
it wasn't supposed to be this way
*laughs*
But I guess that's what you always say, no matter how things turn out...

Is it a good thing?
That I'm really here?
I dunno...
I really don't...

It doesn't really matter, does it?,,,
Does it?,..

I dunno... too tired to think now...
Too tired...
It's been a while...
I love this...
Love everything shuttin down one by one...
Yeah, so my lungs are goin to die, but well, my liver's keepin it company...
lol, and as my 'friends' say, so is my life...
Doesn't matter...

Why though?
Most of the times, I'm ok with it...
In fact, I'm glad its this way...
I wanted this, no?
A life where I was in total control...
except...
am I?

Yeah, I'm free of people...
and the only place these thoughts find existence (other than in my head) is here...
And no one I know in real life reads themmm...
Jus online 'friends'... too far away to anythin bout it...
Exactly the way I wanted it...

So much more...
I could've had it all...
but then again in a way I guess I do...
Projects? Don't really matter, right?
Marks?
Well, not bankin too much on gettin by five yeas anyhow...
Why do I care now then?
Coz... well... No matter what...
I'll fight as long as I have to.
As long as there's an option..
It may seem like I'm losing...
but right now... stayin alive takes top priority...
and well... whatever helps me make sure I do... it's ok...
Long run?
Honestly speakin, am too worked up bout short run to care...

Someday, I'll leave it all behind...
And be everything I wanted to be...
but for now...
*click*
*light*
*drag*
I'm goin to concentrate on stayin alive...