4 posts tagged “party”

So the 5th year party is done.
*laughs*

I don't believe it... After everything I did to make sure this doesn't happen... I've become the person I never wanted to be. I've become the 'other' one.
*sigh*

*shakes head*

I'm off to Koshy's now.
Will come back, drink and laugh bout everything.

oh n DAMN IT!!! eizzil saw me smoking!!!
:(

Brilliant!!!
Just what I need!!!
*insane laugh*

I didn't have time to finish the cursed paper!!!
Gah!!!
And the last question, if only I had time to read it!!! I knew the answer!!!
:(

*sigh*
Oh well, no use thinkin bout it right?

Tmrw's consti... and I need some insane number to pass!
Must study, I do NOT want 4 repeats...
I can't flunk 1st year after reachin 3rd trim without a carry...
Gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!!!

AAAANNND tomorrow is the 5th year party.
Brilliant.
just fuckin brilliant!

*sigh*

What goes around does come around, ne?
I don't know if I can do this anymore... except I don't think I really have a choice...
I'll survive...
I will NOT be weak...
...
...
...

Why do you think I'm strong?
I'm not...
I can't be...
I don't want to feel...
I was better off before...
I'll go back to it... if I can...
I don't know anymore...
I'm just so very tired...
Friends?
I have enough of those...
They can't make the rain stop...
and they can't stop night from falling...
Its okay...
I don't mind...
I love the rain...
And the night is the only time I can breathe...
So...
I guess I will stand...
Things will get better...
if not today... then tomorrow...
and if not then...
well... someday they will...
I'll live for that day... whenever it may come...
*smiles*
I'm okay...
I deserve this...
For all the lies I've ever said...
for all the tears I've caused...
Don't feel sorry for me...
I don't want pity...
I just want... all this to stop...
And I'll manage it on my own...
I don't need your help... and even if I do...
I sure don't want it...
So go away...
live your life...
I don't mind... and I don't blame you...
after all...
What goes around comes around...

   Jus' returned from a squadron party... Well... I left for the party exactly an hour ago, n I'm back already, so you can guess how much 'fun' it was! -_-. Never been too fond of those parties... Well, unless we're talkin bout the sqdn ones we used to have way back, when I was in the 5th grade or somethin... Those were Awesome!!! All us kids would convince our dads to let us board the aircrafts and we'd pretend we were all out on some wacked-out mission to save the world... Yep, fun times...

   Sadly, now my dad's doin the year with CG so the parties aren't that often... and there really aren't any people my age. Grown-up artifice is not really my thing. I'd much rather sit here in front of the p.c typin away, or in my room listenin to music... Darn it, I need to get a faster connection so that I can actually play some games online. *sighs deeply*

   Anyway, I was barely at the party 15 mins!!! Matt, Aj n Anne were all there to eat dinner in the dining hall. I ate the ice-cream and left (Gah, mum n dad made me say 'good bye' to those people whose farewell party it really was. -_-.). Walked out of the booked room and straight into the hall. Sat at Matt n Aj's table and said "feed me". Heh, jus earlier today they were goin on bout how sick and deathly (*ahem ahem* -_-) I've been lookin, so Matt puts the bowl of soup in front of me and says "You do look like you need it". Then Matt jus kept piling food on my plate! I was made to eat at fork point!! T_T. I'm so full -_-.

   They're goin to meet some actor dude whose in town and stayin at Aj's buildin and were askin if I would like to go. I said I couldnt but I think they intended to drag me away anyway (O_O). BUT, my dad was outside that room and pointed at his watch and at the exit, so I think they believed me when I said I had to go... I ran all the way home... Hopefully tonight I'll be tired enough to get some sleep...

   I've been sleepin at 3 n 4 again for the last two days... After almost 2 weeks of sleepin off before it was even one!!! So I'm guessin it was the runnin that got me tired enough to sleep... Today wasn't exactly a very happy day. I was in one of those moods again. -_-. I really need to do somethin bout them... Anyway, I really really hope I don't stay up all nite again... I know I need time for myself and all... but I don't think its very good for me... Darn it! My stupid system doesnt work... Don't even have music to put me to sleep. *sigh*

   Anyway, mom n dad will probably be home soon... K's back from d camp. He seems tired. Well, he has a right to be!!! 3 days of sittin in that bus!!! Poor kid... My hands are trembling again. I wish they would stop doin that -_-. Anyway, I better go. I'm already gonna get lectured for reachin d club half an hour after dad called. *sigh* My back hurts... I really do whine a lot don't I? -_-

   22 days for my NLS results... *crosses fingers* I really really hope I get in...