7 posts tagged “pissed”

I didn't have time to finish the cursed paper!!!
Gah!!!
And the last question, if only I had time to read it!!! I knew the answer!!!
:(

*sigh*
Oh well, no use thinkin bout it right?

Tmrw's consti... and I need some insane number to pass!
Must study, I do NOT want 4 repeats...
I can't flunk 1st year after reachin 3rd trim without a carry...
Gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!!!

AAAANNND tomorrow is the 5th year party.
Brilliant.
just fuckin brilliant!

*sigh*

I actually get tired of people who can't ever find anything nice to say about anyone. They try so hard to make sure they aren't taken in by popular belief that they end up caring more than they should bout what people think.
It's very paradoxical, not to mention confusing.
And its annoying.

Don't judge me when you don't know me.
I hate sittin and listening as they go on and on about every single person, as if running through a list, and give reasons why they're pathetic people... I just think that kinda talkin makes you really pathetic. It IS annoying. Its always annoyed me...

I'm just glad that I can still get annoyed like this. Lol. I thought I was immune to it! Its nice knowing I'm not completely... not yet anyway, so YAY! ^_^

Apart from that bit of ranting, I had my viva today. apparently a large bit of it was cogged. The part S.G was supposed to do. My friends want me to go talk to sir or something... but I just can't. *sigh* It just doesn't seem like the right thing to do... I dunno. Brilliant. Now, it's definitely gonna be all 4 courses!

Gah!!!

Which reminds me, must go back to studyin Consti. Bah. Why can't these ppl write shorter articles. God, I havn't read a single case yet and I don't even know how many are coming this time. Luckily I'd read a bit of Tomkins before, so that's done. I don't feel like reading Barendt... Oh my, I sound like such a nerd!!!
-_-

Aaaaaaaaaaaaargh!!!
You and your stupid games!
I'm done playing!
...
...
...
Why?
I don't know what bothers me more...
The fact that I probably don't understand... or that I think I actually may...

At the end of the stupid day, vodka is all you have...
*shakes head*
*glares*
and all you frikkin need!

You and your stupid mind games can go to HELL!

*laughs*
Am back to this song...
Well, it has been a while...
Has anything changed?
...

Ecstacy is now really all I need...
Literally...
And it's all I have...
Vain? Am I vain?... I dunno...
Now my world IS way too fast...
I don't even know where its going. Which direction... if there's any direction at all.
It's all just a haze... a blur...
None of it is real... and it doesn't matter whether it is or not, coz either way... none of it is going to last...

In love?
Why would you be in love with me?
*shakes head*
It's a mistake.
And its not true that I don't care...
*smiles sadly*
That's why I run away...
I don't wanna hurt you...

My anger into lust?
I don't even think thats possible... and even if it is.. I don't know how to...
I do trust you...
With my life... just not with my soul...

Don't wait for me...
Love?
Isn't there...
Sex
Can't be there unless there's love...
loneliness
...
Why would I take that from you?
...

Don't ask me to take what I want...
I don't know what I want...
GO AWAY!

You can't be in love with sins...
Not mine.
Not anyone's...
Stop waiting...
...

I don't fear desire... Do I?
*shakes head*
I do...
It'll consume us all...
I must leave...
Don't love me...
I can't take this anymore...
I am drowning...
I WON'T take you down with me...
My bitter pills are all that stay... all that I allow to stay...

Am I all or not?
I don't think I know the difference anymore..
...
...

*smiles*
Yeah, you're right...
The only reason you would stay is if you were blind...
Don't wait darling...
I'm long gone..
and even if I was to stay...
you'd leave, ne?

Then...
I guess there really is no point...
...
...
...

Why can’t people just mind their own business?

It’s so totally PISSING off.

-_-

No, I don’t care what you say.

How hard is it to understand that?

We may be friends, but you have no right to tell me what to do and who to talk to.

I don’t give a f*ck if it IS jus coz you’re “worried”

Butt out bitch.

-_-

Sorry

Just really really ticked off right now

Should’ve just whacked her head off with the kendo stick

-_-

You know, it's only now that I realize what a sheltered life I'd really lived.

Horrors are horrors... I'm talkin bout daily life here...

The Navy is an amazing place to grow up in. For the first 17 years of my life, the words "caste", "society", "religious discrimination", etc meant NOTHING to me. They were just words I read in the newspaper. And I laughed at the stupidity of the small number of people- or so I thought- that were still obsessed with these immaterial things...

But then... I had my one year at college in K-land. Even then... I believed that it was a freak thing, and the only real barrier was one of communication. I refused to believe that our country could still be a place where it mattered what caste or religion you were born in, and the concept of pure blood still existed...

But now...
All my doubts have been crushed into tiny little pieces... as has much of my belief in ours being a truly secular country. Everyone says it doesn't really matter where you're from, but it's such a part of everyday conversation and thought... it scares me... but more than that, it angers me. I hate the way it has crept into every day of my life. I hate knowing that no matter what I say or do, the first thing so many around me will want to know is where I am from. What the F*CK does that have to do with anything???
(Sorry bout the censoring, my coll will block access to my own site if I do not do so. -_-)

I loathe the question "Where are you from?", and I'm glad I have no one answer to give. I'm relieved that there is no one state or caste I must 'belong' to. "Belong to". I belong to no one. To nothing. Specially not some dumb ancient system just because I was born in one house and not another. If I want to belong somewhere, I am gonna be the one deciding where, not my 'lineage', not my blood. Me.

At home, religion was never a big thing. Yeah, once in a while, mum would light some incense and then me and my brother would fight over who would get to twirl it around the few god pictures in the house. But that was pretty much it. We never had forced temple visits, or family prayers. Some may say that it brings about better 'family harmony'. I think playin UNO accomplishes that way more easily... and it's more fun too!

And then there's all the shocked gasping people who ask me how I dare say I don't believe in God. Firstly, it's none of their business. Secondly, it's not like I don't believe in God, I just don't believe in their Gods. Any of theirs. Religion is nothing but another reason to be divided. Oh sure, it unites people, brings different people together, promotes harmony, blah blah. But it also gets people killed... and frankly, I'd rather everyone live in relative isolation than be murdered just because they fast in the name of different supernatural beings.

   Well, I got my laptop yesterday... Finished with term paper submissions too... well one of 'em anyway... *sigh* And the exams are creepin closer and closer like some kind of SLUG!!! -_-. Okay, that made little sense... but I Don't really care...

   On the bright side, I saw the 'Dead Poets Society' last nite and today afternoon. I really liked it... Was really really sad though... Poor kid... Then me n my room-mate wer takin turns raidin' RC's hard drive. ^_^. Didn't get to sleep... s'okay... I had 3 cups of coffee today evenin. But my head does still hurt... I also spoke to mave... Lol, she's havin a tough time... *grins* but in the nice way... We went n got music from Ak's rank grand mum. ^___^. Am listenin to that now...

   I was so freakin high yesterday... Damn it, I think I was bordering on drunk... I dunno how many shots of vodka I did have... I know it was definitely more than 4... And then I had some rum as well PLUS random sips of other forms of alcohol! @_@. Darn it... *shakes head* I need to get a grip... I really do...

   Havn't really talked to anyone bout it. mave didn't have any balance... besides its not like she can do anythin from over there... I tried smokin too... Loads of times... Don't think I got it right... Its okay... I'll learn... If I try tellin neone bout what it felt like... Well, I'd jus get lectured again. Bah. Screw em! I did talk to Marten... Atleast he doesnt try n tell me how I'm goin out of control and loads of crap which dont ppl think I already know?!!!(Pardon the grammar -_-)

   Damn it, the guard's here... I gotta go... Am goin to watch movies all nite... I hope this mess clears out. Loads more to say. Will update later... Nite...