4 posts tagged “talk”

He's right...
But... does that mean I am wrong?
I don't know...
I could change... but is it worth it?
Do I want to?
Yes...
But do I want this to be the reason?
No...

What do I do?

Take away my pride and my pain... and what's left behind?
Nothing...
I was wrong...
I didn't keep me with me...
I became whiskey, vodka, weed...
There's nothing left of me anymore...
The pieces are ground so finely, all they are anymore is stardust...
Fine, shining, and utterly useless... even for a reflection...
All they do is provide good entertainment...

And you can only watch fragmented shards for this long...

Am sitting outside the socio prof's room. 6 of us are waiting here for the vivas. I think I'm up next. I like these people. Its a very 'chill' crowd, if I may use that term. I should be readin up, but I just don't feel like.

Someone just passed me a roach. Should I? Should I not? I don't know... And Ak's out for the night as well... Okay then, guess its decision time...

Ak, E.S and I went to Polar Bear for lunch. It was fun. Kinda random, but then, what the heck. i can take random... Today morning was pretty bad. I missed the first hour and slept instead. It was weird coz I kept passin in and out of sleep. Everytime I woke up it was a different feeling. Dreams merged with reality... Once I woke up devastated, only to realize... that nothing had really happened. But it was much worse when I woke up believing everything had been sorted out... to find that nothing had changed...

Depressing messaging all the way into the next two hours... after which, somehow things sorted themselves out... At least temporarily.

I can take complicated. And I can live with hazy boundaries.

Note- A letter to a friend. Hey, you wanted me to put this up here right? Even though you're probably never gonna read it...

Let’s talk tonight.

I know we should have done it long ago… while you were still around… but we were always so caught up in everything else…

And now you’ve gone so far away…

So, I guess I’ll just have to do with talking to the wall, hoping that somehow you can hear the words I always meant to say…

I never lied to you.

I always said, that this couldn’t go on forever, and that sooner or later, I meant to leave… and you agreed saying if I didn’t leave you surely would…

If both of us were so sure that this was all a mistake, then why do I feel so lost right now?

I keep wondering how you’re doing.

You seem fine…

And so I pretend I am too…

But every time you see right through me, I feel… horrible… as if I really am invisible, floating through this foreign world like some sort of ghost.

And I feel alone…

You told me that you were finally content… and that everything finally seemed like it was under control…

I don’t wanna mess that up.

I can’t… but I know that if I stick around for a while, I will…

So you’ll never see the scars, and you’ll never really hear what I‘m trying to say…

I guess it’s not really us talking tonight…

It’s just me…

And no one’s listening…

Good night darling.

For what its worth, thank you…

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